fastforward please?

every hour feels like years!
and,
days are taking forever to get to the next.
like seriously.
argh!

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now or never! (i hope)

when you think you are no where near perfect, think of all those thats way worse than you. those that were not given a chance to even be normal. these past few days has been a rollercoaster. its difficult to know if its okay or not to be who you are. i dont know. its difficult but at the same time if you dont try then you are just being a sore loser isn it? why is it so hard for me to be determined to do something. im those people who almost always let my surrounding take over my inital plan. im 21 now. thats sooo adult right? its really really really time for me to plan a change and stick to it. like really do it already. if not now, when right? i surely dont wanna feel this way 10 years down the road. im sure it will suck more.

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that happy place.

whats the point of having a blog and not actually posting anything out right? so now its either i close this blog or post something! i think ill go with the second option since its actually not a bad idea to blabber loads of nonsense here without actually whinning to an actual person who might wanna slap you 5 times! =p

and so, loads have been happening.
almost everytime, everything seems to be awesome but of cause there are those moments where the awesome will turn out to be not so awesome. not because unawesome stuffs actually directly happens, its just coz of the whole "saarah thinks too much all the time" issue. arghhhh! wish i could hide that side of me like forever coz its fucking annoying i tell you!!!! (pardon the outburst) why is it so hard to take things as it comes and appreciate everything that has been said without having that hint of insecurity? that very very very little doubt and insecurity its actually a normal thing that everyone has in them right? unless you are just very naive then im sure you wont be having this irritating problem.

i think everyone, no matter how confident you are mr.insecurity will be more than happy to slap your face every now and then. i mean when you are flying high there always has to be something eager to pull you down right? and not to forget mr.kepoh who urges you to kepoh like nobody's bz and then lead to all those insecurity rubbish. i mean, i know everything already happened way longggggggg ago. key word LONG AGO. but why is it still annoying when you see certain stuffs that is still there (of cause not on purpose). why is it still not a 100% when you important people almost always tells you what you wanna hear. the assuarance is given all the time even without you asking for it. what more do you want saarah mariee!? gawddd.

i think im gonna make this the last time i do all this kepoh nonsense work thats not bringing me anywhere i wanna be. old is gonna stay old. im not gonna go thru that again.byebye, its over, its done. lets just concentrate on what matters most. as cheesy as its gonna sounds, this time, i know im not in someething stupid, and its something i actually want.for once it feels RIGHT. thats a good start isn it? =D (esp coming from me.. hehe) its about time i enjoy the love, the friendship, the security and everything else awesome coming from everyone that is actually having the same concious like i have.
correct people? =D

no matter what,
it all comes down to one thing. how prepared and confident you are, is the only thing thats gonna measure how well everything is gonna turn out.
(having my trying to be all matured moment =p)

wah, that was a very whinny long post for someone who haven blogged for a long time.. sorrryyy.. hehe

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why so fastttttt!?

felt like it was just a few days ago i posted out my last blogpost saying my exams are over! and my holidays are starting!
but in a blink of an eye my holidays are over!, and im gonna start school and results will be out before i know it!!!!
i dont wanttttt.. i wanna just roll around without any guilt! arghhhhh!
(im so turning into a whinny monkey)